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When I experience fear it is usually because I am lacking faith, either in myself or in God. If I have a certain amount of faith in myself or God then there is no reason to be afraid. Basically for me it comes down to acceptance. If I accept outcomes, no matter what they turn out to be, then I have nothing to fear. If I place faith in the fact that I am going to be taken care of and that whatever happens is exactly what is supposed to happen then there is absolutely no reason for fear. Of course there are exceptions to every rule, for instance, if I am jumping off of a 50 foot rock into the ocean there is obviously going to be some fear there, but in cases of fear of the future, whether it is physical or spiritual matters as long as I have faith then there is no reason for me to experience fear. So why is it that my life is most of the time led by fear?

Could it possibly be because I have been trained and groomed to attempt to be in control of my life and the situations that arise? Maybe because I have been led to believe that I should look, act, live a certain way in order to fit in? That my lifestyle should be of a certain stature; that I should own a prestigious level in society; that power, property and prestige are the possessions that matter most in life?

I believe that theses things are true to a certain extent. As far back as I can remember I was hearing things like, you need to go to college and get a good job and own a big house and a nice car, you need to act this way, you need to be politically correct, you need to have manners and respect, you need to dress like this and listen to this music. Some of that direction has been good; however I believe that in the absence of individuality an ignorant mind is present. How can I be enlightened when my mind is cluttered with the egotistical thoughts that were so strategically placed into my mind? I Have to separate myself from the mainstream and find myself and am myself no matter what. I need to embrace who I am and have no fear of not fitting in. I need to live how I feel is best and strive to be a better person, not strive to feed my ego. I do not have to live in fear of my fellow man, meaning I do not have to live to impress people. With this attitude I can live and work towards a higher level of living, more humility, more personal strength and growth.

Of course knowing all of this and living it perfectly are two different things, I know it is easier today then it was when I was in high school. Being me is a very important part of my foundation of life; it rids me of the fear of man. It allows me to live with a certain amount of freedom that I wouldn’t be able to possess if I was trapped in the bondage of trying to impress everyone.

Jeremy Lee

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